It's probably not that different now I think about it, but it's closer to how it was supposed to be when I got it down the first time.
At the thought of each toad, a shudder, and I
have my ears covered as the car pulls off.
My dad and I pick our way for the last three hundred metres
in the pitchest night through the slap-slap
of toad bellies on concrete. There is a flash of carcasses
with every sweep of torch, so it's turned off
and we are straining our eyes with our heads bent low,
afraid for our own weight on soft bodies.
The black closes in, so much so that it’s hard to imagine
a receding fear amidst the croaking and my hand
in my Dad’s hand. The search for the ground is pointless so
I close my eyes against the nature of the dark.